id,conversation_id,segment_index,text,sentiment,score,emotions
14286,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,67,"Jake, Is this what you did before?",neutral,0.0,"[""curiosity""]"
14287,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,68,Like so.,neutral,0.0,"[""curiosity""]"
14288,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,69,Are we doing this way?,neutral,0.0,"[""curiosity""]"
14289,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,70,Did you just completely flip it upside down? Last time?,neutral,0.0,"[""curiosity""]"
14290,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,71,"Like, I You, like, tilted it? Tilted up. Yeah.",neutral,0.0,"[""curiosity""]"
14291,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,72,Fire.,positive,0.5,"[""joy""]"
14292,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,73,"Seems like wherever heat can go is gonna go. I mean, there's not much more you can do with that than like, it's",neutral,0.0,"[""curiosity""]"
14293,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,74,Do you wanna put it in the middle or just right there is fine?,neutral,0.0,"[""curiosity""]"
14294,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,75,Okay.,neutral,0.0,"[""contentment""]"
14295,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,76,Is. Too much for one day.,negative,-0.5,"[""frustration""]"
14296,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,77,Imagine imagine if we weren't. We were made for this. Difficult this would be.,neutral,0.0,"[""curiosity""]"
14297,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,78,Bethy needs her book.,neutral,0.0,"[""concern""]"
14298,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,79,Was gonna be the hard one. Was gonna be the easy one.,neutral,0.0,"[""curiosity""]"
14299,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,80,Yeah. Sideways.,neutral,0.0,"[""curiosity""]"
14300,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,81,"That's the close Was there was some I'm it worked out really easily, but there was some pressure on it. It wasn't set up. To go as well as it did.",neutral,0.0,"[""concern""]"
14301,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,82,Yeah.,neutral,0.0,"[""contentment""]"
14302,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,83,Right. I'll just stay.,neutral,0.0,"[""resignation""]"
14303,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,84,Think you did mention that. Yeah. I didn't want see it.,neutral,0.0,"[""curiosity""]"
14304,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,85,It does sound familiar.,neutral,0.0,"[""curiosity""]"
14305,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,86,I don't know. Make request to get Did that.,neutral,0.0,"[""curiosity""]"
14306,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,87,K.,neutral,0.0,"[""curiosity""]"
14307,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,88,The can do a,neutral,0.0,"[""curiosity""]"
14308,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,89,Yeah.,neutral,0.0,"[""contentment""]"
14309,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,90,How do you feel about that?,neutral,0.0,"[""curiosity""]"
14310,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,91,Yeah. Yeah.,neutral,0.0,"[""contentment""]"
14311,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,92,That makes sense.,neutral,0.0,"[""curiosity""]"
14312,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,93,Yeah. I can Lay it I'm I'm here for you. You need.,positive,0.5,"[""empathy""]"
14313,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,94,Okay.,neutral,0.0,"[""contentment""]"
14314,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,95,Play some games for the kids. Okay. Here for all of that.,positive,0.5,"[""joy""]"
14315,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,96,I'm good.,positive,0.5,"[""contentment""]"
14316,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,97,"Yeah, I mean, I have a problem. Mean, addressing. I'm just here for you. In this moment. Just lean on me for whatever.",positive,0.5,"[""warmth"", ""connection""]"
14317,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,98,"I mean, I wanna spend a little time tonight learning about this video library. I've been playing with a little bit on and off through my phone.",neutral,0.0,"[""curiosity""]"
14318,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,99,"I wanna, like, focus on for a few minutes sometime. Mhmm. But you know? I also would enjoy playing some games with your kids.",positive,0.5,"[""joy"", ""connection""]"
14319,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,100,"And I here for you too. So, like, I I don't I think I can get all of that done. Tonight. So I don't need you to do anything other than just I know, you help me, like, well help me.",neutral,0.0,"[""determination""]"
14320,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,101,Just let me help you.,positive,0.5,"[""empathy"", ""warmth""]"
14321,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,102,Put me where you want me.,positive,0.5,"[""determination"", ""connection""]"
14322,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,103,"I might want to make myself a protein drink, that's okay.",neutral,0.0,"[""contentment""]"
14323,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,104,I didn't wear this into that room. And I tried not to touch anything although I guess I did brush up against the I have any other pants though. I take these out to put them in the wash.,negative,-0.5,"[""frustration""]"
14324,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,105,I don't have pants on. I can go home get some spare clothes. I should have thought through that better. None of your kids have pants that would fit me?,negative,-0.5,"[""frustration"", ""anxiety""]"
14325,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,106,Nor do you.,neutral,0.0,[]
14326,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,107,"Although, actually, the pants Cable was worn yesterday. Were humongous. They fit me for sure. They were like, wash. Okay.",positive,0.5,"[""humor""]"
14327,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,108,If there's bedbugs here. And at my house.,negative,-0.5,"[""fear""]"
14328,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,109,Worse than that. So much worse? Yeah.,negative,-0.5,"[""fear""]"
14329,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,110,K.,neutral,0.0,[]
14330,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,111,Just get asleep in tomorrow? Yeah.,neutral,0.0,[]
14331,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,112,Till 07:30. Alright. Till 07:30. I guess.,neutral,0.0,[]
14332,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,113,I'm paying him back.,neutral,0.0,[]
14333,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,114,"And I mean, didn't I have any agency. I didn't even he was gone. He was out of the building when I found out what he had done I think it's great.",positive,0.5,"[""determination"", ""frustration""]"
14334,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,115,Yeah. I've I think it's great. Yeah.,positive,0.5,"[""joy""]"
14335,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,116,Yeah.,neutral,0.0,[]
14336,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,117,Right.,neutral,0.0,[]
14337,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,118,Right.,neutral,0.0,[]
14338,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,119,"You can feel obligated not just to lend them the money, you can feel obligated to",positive,0.5,"[""concern""]"
14339,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,120,suppress your own needs.,negative,-0.5,"[""frustration""]"
14340,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,121,To make them comfortable.,negative,-0.5,"[""frustration""]"
14341,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,122,"Like, the thing is, Suppress your own needs to make them more functional. Suppress your own whatever, whatever could feel you could feel like they're pressing on you the way they pressed on Dave when he took you guys in.",negative,-0.5,"[""frustration""]"
14342,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,123,"Right? Like like their problems are your problems. To the point that your own life becomes harder to manage, Right? Which it's already I mean, you do a great job.",positive,0.5,"[""admiration""]"
14343,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,124,"But you have like, have you do a better job than you have any business doing really. Your life should work less well than it does.",positive,0.5,"[""admiration""]"
14344,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,125,"And there is some level of ordered chaos that you run, that you just float know what I mean? You're on a surfboard all the time.",positive,0.5,"[""admiration""]"
14345,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,126,"At any moment you could fall down. Like, the just the fundamental nature of your life. At any moment something could come up and just knock you down.",negative,-0.5,"[""fear""]"
14346,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,127,And you just and it does.,neutral,0.0,"[""contentment""]"
14347,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,128,"And then you just get back up without thinking too much about it because what else is there. Right? Like, you just have to do the best you can with what you're given and that's what you do.",positive,0.5,"[""determination"", ""joy""]"
14348,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,129,"So it could be that it's not the lending the money in itself, it's just that it's like it comes like the choice to do it comes from this deeper place of dysfunction which is part of me accepts my parents put their problems on their kids and part of me goes along with it and I'm ambivalent about that. Right? Like, I love them, I do feel a duty to them, and I have to take care of myself, and I have my own goals, and I'm uncomfortable with my own I am uncomfortable with how I feel obligated in this situation. Like I can't resolve these various pieces of of you know, you.",mixed,0.0,"[""frustration"", ""love"", ""anxiety""]"
14349,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,130,"Resolve the various pieces. You you can't quite resolve to just let them hang. Themselves. You can't quite resolve to lending them money. You can't quite resolve to stepping in and take care of them. You can't quite resolve to not stepping in and take care of them. No matter what you do, you're being stretched and like pulled in different directions.",negative,-0.5,"[""frustration"", ""tension""]"
14350,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,131,"And you don't like there are no choices that are in alignment with what really, who you wanna be and so it's just this like anxiety and discomfort of like And it's all connected to the fact that they're in this position and that you feel this obligation connects I'm, you know, I'm, this is conjecture. I have no idea.",negative,-0.5,"[""anxiety"", ""concern""]"
14351,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,132,Connects to this like deeper pain from childhood of like these scenarios where you had legitimate needs and you you were not taken care of and you couldn't take care of yourself.,negative,-0.5,"[""sadness"", ""loneliness""]"
14352,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,133,You did the best you could with what you were given and it was pretty fucking awesome but it also sucked. Right? At the same time.,mixed,0.0,"[""joy"", ""frustration""]"
14353,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,134,"Mean, you called your aunt or cousin and they took you in for a while, right, in Saint George. Yeah. I mean, you solved it. Solved it. You improved it. You you did exercise some agency inside of that situation, You you basically took on an adult role.",positive,0.5,"[""pride"", ""determination""]"
14354,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,135,"Which is you know, was never a burden you should have been under. But you didn't and that's what it was what it was and you were smart and capable.",positive,0.5,"[""pride"", ""warmth""]"
14355,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,136,"I don't know. I mean, I thought this earlier. And again, I have no idea if any of these pieces connect the way my mind's connecting them. But this the thing about Emily and the tennis thing. Right? Like Yeah.",neutral,0.0,"[""curiosity""]"
14356,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,137,"You've expressed before this idea of like, you are seen as the capable one which means you get taken care of. Like benefits get passed around to different members of the family You get jumped over because you're the one that's that's proven capable of taking care yourself.",negative,-0.5,"[""frustration"", ""guilt""]"
14357,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,138,"Which you are, but it also sucks to be like, so I don't get a cookie, because I'm capable of making cookies. I'm the only one in this situation that can make own cookies and so I don't get one.",negative,-0.5,"[""frustration"", ""sadness""]"
14358,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,139,That's dog shit.,negative,-1.0,"[""anger""]"
14359,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,140,"And it's this practical reality sometimes too. Right? And so you're like, I can understand it. I can understand why from their perspective they make these decisions and I have probably made similar decisions in my life where I'm like looking at my kids and I'm like the the kid that's the most problematic gets the lion's share of the attention which is short changes these other kids The kids that the the kids that are the most helpful are the ones that are receiving the least benefit.",mixed,0.0,"[""concern"", ""empathy""]"
14360,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,141,Right?,neutral,0.0,[]
14361,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,142,"Yet, practically this is how it has to be. Like, I don't know how to fix that. It's not fair but I don't know how to fix it. Right? And so you're like as a parent, as a person that understands how things work and I can understand how it works, but as a child, needing attention, validation, needing to be valued needing to be seen.",mixed,0.0,"[""concern"", ""frustration""]"
14362,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,143,"Needing to be held and cherished and nurtured, not getting it because you appeared less in need of it. Generates all kinds of weird don't know. You know what I mean? Like maybe they're all connected. Like, all these different things you've like you've like rolled through to Maybe they're all connected, maybe they're not connected at all.",mixed,0.0,"[""confusion"", ""sadness""]"
14363,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,144,"But, like, anyway,",neutral,0.0,[]
14364,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,145,"As long as you keep these muscles, They're gonna Look at that arm.",positive,0.5,"[""determination"", ""hope""]"
14365,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,146,Your life seems to be stirring all kinds of things up in you Right. Lately.,positive,0.5,"[""curiosity"", ""excitement""]"
14366,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,147,Maybe that's Just like this week. Maybe that's couple days. Right. Maybe that's productive despite its discomfort. Maybe that's like you know what I mean?,positive,0.5,"[""hope"", ""determination""]"
14367,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,148,and Burden but you're also the one exercising the most agency. You know what I mean? You're the one directing. You're the one in charge. You're the one structuring these scenarios.,positive,0.5,"[""pride"", ""determination""]"
14368,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,149,You're a leader.,positive,0.5,"[""pride"", ""joy""]"
14369,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,150,I just think I think you experience a lot of feeling of,neutral,0.0,[]
14370,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,151,Like obligation and like you need to like you're trying to accommodate everybody. Which I think is reasonable,positive,0.5,"[""empathy"", ""concern""]"
14371,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,152,But I'm also like I just don't think you realize how powerful you are. I don't think you realize how much control you have how how much agency you have in this situation. Right?,positive,0.5,"[""pride"", ""hope""]"
14372,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,153,"Yeah. How you are the one making things happen, doing things. You are the setting the tone, you are the one Right? You are you are you author a scenario Everyone else steps into that scenario that you created.",positive,0.5,"[""pride"", ""determination""]"
14373,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,154,They're not creating it. Right? The different levels of participation from different pieces but you are the you are the master of this scenario. Right?,positive,0.5,"[""pride"", ""joy""]"
14374,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,155,Yeah.,neutral,0.0,[]
14375,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,156,Something that's Something for us. Survive Survival. Yeah.,neutral,0.0,[]
14376,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,157,Yeah. I like it.,positive,0.5,"[""joy""]"
14377,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,158,"Like, Oh, the yeah.",neutral,0.0,"[""curiosity""]"
14378,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,159,You're locked in.,neutral,0.0,"[""contentment""]"
14379,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,160,"Sometimes I do, but it's more of an abstraction. What's salient to me is that a lot of this time is really meaningful. Because a lot of it is it is kinda what I wanted.",positive,0.7,"[""joy"", ""hope""]"
14380,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,161,"Like, it's the life I envisioned for myself that I didn't get. Know what I mean? And so when I see it, I don't see the problems.",mixed,0.2,"[""nostalgia"", ""frustration""]"
14381,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,162,"I see them but they're abstractions. Does that make sense? Intellectually, I'm like, oh yeah, this she's very busy. And when I'm here, I'm busy. You know what I mean? Like, normally I'm like, looking for ways to, like, help. You know? Like, 90% of the time, I either trying to entertain a kid or trying to interact with you or cleaning something up.",neutral,0.0,"[""contentment""]"
14382,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,163,"Or you know what I mean? Like, I'm not when I'm here. And so but it doesn't it doesn't I don't experience that as a burden, you know?",positive,0.6,"[""joy"", ""determination""]"
14383,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,164,"And that's interesting to me because I like I have in the past, not with you, but like just in my life. This level of busy, I have experienced it as like, oh, this is heavy, this is hard. Right?",mixed,0.1,"[""frustration"", ""hope""]"
14384,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,165,So sometimes I'm like this is a lot. It is a lot. But my emotional experience of it is this is happiness.,positive,0.8,"[""joy"", ""contentment""]"
14385,3c9b1259-cdfd-4f93-9c86-ec160ae97ce1,166,This is meaningful. This is like and and also I'm like in it too. Like I'm swept away by it and so I'm not that I'm not self reflective as it's happening. I just I'm just like okay.,positive,0.7,"[""joy"", ""connection""]"